That ended!

So it turned out the dishwashing environment I was in turned very toxic, and someone walked off and a few days later I was fired over the same person. The person walked out because they were too frustrated to continue to be able to work with the person. I got fired for actively avoiding person. A lot of stuff happened on the day that I got fired, so I knew it was my last day. If they hadn't fired me I would have quit.

But it was a very horrible environment to be in. And a position like a dishwasher, where you only have your co-workers to talk to and no customers or anyone else to filter between is very important to get along with your co-workers. I feel like I was the only one who really cared about that and our little piece of the team. I could easily be incorrect, but what I know for sure is that other people really didn't care about what or how they were saying, and things didn't actually Fall Apart. I wasn't willing to work with the other person either, so it's all for the best. I don't waste my time on toxic people.

Nothing of value was awesome experience. I know I'll find another job! it would be nice to be able to sit somewhere for a year, though.

In due time, I'm feeling all of my confidence again because I'm bald again! I love being bald, and I missed it very much!

Open communication at work!

Things at the dishwashing job ate working out pretty well, so far. I have some physical stuff going on with the strenuous activity, but it's nothing that can't be resolved with an ice cold treatment. However, things boiled over between co-workers today after a meeting with our boss. All the issues boiled over, and open communication definitely needed to happen. It's too bad people were so overzealous they kept interrupting each other, which made things worse to an extent. But after all is said and done, people got along better. I'm glad I had that break down, because it's help me do a better job of identifying when I need to step away from a situation. I went over to a different area in the dishwashing section for some peace and quiet, after the conflict.

But the particular co-worker that was on the other end of the conflict is very overzealous, and uses overly abrasive Burbage. It's usually accusing someone of something, or throwing someone under the bus. This person has little to no chill, and we wonder with all these other skills that this person has why they aren't doing something else more challenging than being a dishwasher. The Stereotype that were very happy to conform to is that the dishwashing area is usually wear the most chill people are. We have our share of responsibilities and extracurricular activities that we could be doing during down time, but really we like to sit back, wash dishes, and get to know each other. The job not being so challenging in some areas allows people to have a flourish of personalities and even share interests. I feel like we're all doing that, but this person is doing way too much in the area of working out of their way. It's suspected that this person might be trying to make the rest of us look bad. It all remains to be seen on a consequential scale, if it ever comes to that.

Fabulous mood!

I've been experiencing a lot of positive changes recently! I went back for another yoga session today, and I just feel so much more gratuitous every time I go to a yoga class. I still have a problem with bashing myself for not being able to do the poses right, but in the moment, I understand that yoga is about doing what's best for you and it's not about pushing yourself too hard. The people around me care if I hurt myself, for a variety of reasons, and I'd certainly care if I hurt myself. And how I handle my yoga is definitely how I should handle my life. Do myself the better service of pushing myself and having new experiences and testing my limits, but not going out of my way to overexert myself in ways I know will be detrimental. But also, be determined and consistent.

I ran into a friend I haven't seen in person in over 6 months! That friend was able to pick me up off the ground in a hug, and that's not something I think that they would have been able to do over 6 months ago. It really made me think about where I am and where I want to be with my own physical stature. The friend did admit that they had to make some sacrifices to get to where they are, or at least for it to show. That friend is a bike mechanic so surely they would gain some strength in the line at work, but for it to show as well as it does means that they had to cut the carbs. I love carbohydrates! I just couldn't see my life without them, but I can also stand to take in more protein. I don't watch what I eat, and I've decided to dramatically decrease my meat intake. Even if I don't cut back on the carbs, I still need to pick up on the protein to be able to stay standing.

I also went into a sauna, for the first time! It felt so good to sweat in dry heat! Walking back out into the air-conditioned locker room was painfully invigorating!

Over the past few days, I had my very first Couchsurfing guest! For the first time, I was on the other side of the experience, and it was amazing! I'm very fortunate that my first guest was enthusiastic about being in the area! I'm also very fortunate that I have roommates and a lot of friends to help me entertain! And a huge bonus for this guest also having hosted people, so I could get more feedback on that part of the experience and have better Insight on where I want to be with how I want to navigate and guide the influence with the type of hosting experience I want to have.

Much to look forward to!

Hi Stranger (Original) - KIRSTEN LEPORE

Dream of current feelings and reality

I just had a dream that I was at my grandma's house and life was going somewhat normal, as it usually does when I have dreams in her house. But suddenly she was at a state in her Alzheimer's where she couldn't walk but she was still functional. I don't think that has anything to do with Alzheimer's, though. That process works differently, from what I witnessed.

Anyway, I suddenly had some white friends for whatever reason. And also is suddenly for some unexplained reason, Louisiana became a frozen tundra and people that were forced to evacuate. My friends were sitting there with me like they were waiting on something, but there were a lot of white people in spaceships Vehicles passing by and I was calling out for help and not only did not have them help me, but some of them turned and laughed at me for asking for help. As soon as I ask my friends for help, they suddenly responded and we suddenly had a functional vehicle that we could escape with ourselves. And they plan on coming back for my wheelchair-bound grandmother, even though the dream ended before that can happen. The last thing that happened was we drove off to see if we could get something to get her in the car or something. And I think my great-grandmother was there too, but she already froze to death. I think that was her. I'm not sure, though.

Firstly, I'm glad it's not another doing dream.

Secondly, I think I know what the universe is trying to tell me.

Third, I don't know why Sally is there. I never understand why I still dream about family members. I sure don't want to.

Liquor store end

Friday was my last day at Zipps Liquor store. I turned the drama up on a normal issue to give myself an out because of an event that happened earlier that day.

What happened was a very suddenly forced and sudden meeting with one of the owners about why Zipps isn't participating in the Jj Taylor strike. I was informed that only 2 businesses are taking a stance with the truck drives in the strike and they are still accepting Jj products. But, for the way it was brought up I feel like it was a condescending view on the businesses that vocally sided with the workers.

I was also told the Zipps is to mention a neutral stance in all political subjects because "we need everyone to feel comfortable shopping here". And, the manager specifically said - without any prompt - "people that are for or against abortion". With something as extreme as abortion being brought up as a subject, that would lead my train of thought to Zipps being comfortable with people in hate groups shopping there.

The real slap in the face was after all this that manager demanded that if a customer asks about the strike is that I reply "I don't know. Please ask the manager." How dare the employment class demand I speak on their behalf for their benefit. Zipps wants everyone to do the position they applied for and be housekeeping and security. Those are 2 completely different positions that we are forced to do without previous explaination to the positions with proper consent and are not being paid any extra for those other duties. As a cashier, I was only starting at $10 /hr with only a .50¢ increase after 90 days, but no other set raises after that. I was told by a former employee that they make raises hard to get and a person has to show major devotion to get a raise after that. Time being their after those first 90 days does not make a raise stable.

Zipps Liquor of Mlps MN is a crime against workers! This is why all jobs need unions! There's no such thing as being neutral! Everyone should do the job they have signed up and agreed to do, and nothing more. Security is a different position from the other jobs, so that should be it's own person. People should be paid a living wage, and if Zipps can't afford to they shouldn't be in business.

What filth...

I had a total meltdown on my housemates today. We were having a meeting and they told me they didn't like some of the rules I made. In general, I can deal with that and I can talk about why it's in place. But, for what I was going through, now was not the time to gang up on me about something they agreed to when they moved in.

And, they wanted to do a community graden in the front yard when I can't get anyone to pick up a towel and wipe off the counters. And, I want the front yard just to have a yard to enjoy. Those gardens hardly even grow anything.

But, they're lucky, because if I had been any less stressed I would have told them about themselves to absolute filth, on the spot.

But, what really threw me for a loop. What was really "game over" was when I was contesting to keep the front yard as is and the others wouldn't let it go and Has said "If it's communal, let's vote on it." I. WAS. LIVID. I said "fuck this," and stormed out slamming the door. I went for a walk to yell, and came back, packed my backpack and wrote a note saying "If y'all like _ so much, y'all can suck his dick!" And, when _ asked why I wrote that I went off about how I've done so much for the house and no one was supportive of my feelings and efforts. Previous people have been so shitty in this house and I don't know who's going to be shitty next, and everything I've set up is for a reason. The house manager would rather do anything but take on other interpersonal duties, and no one wants to do anything else and I do all the cleaning otherwise. Oh, but y'all wanna do a fucking graden? And, take up the space that I like, rather than put it in other places that are just as good? And, take away space from future housemates?

I have one person that spills food on themselves and doesn't clean it up when they stand up. One person that cooks and leaves a mess and dishes and leaves for days. The house manager and their partner's issue. Oh, but y'all wanna do a graden? In a spot that isn't even growing anything. And the one that spills food won't even be working on the graden.

These bitches right here... And, they say they're cool, but after what's happened why should I trust them? I can forgive but I don't forget. Everyday I get more reasons to resent Minnesotans. I might forgive Has one day, but I won't forget this.