What filth...

I had a total meltdown on my housemates today. We were having a meeting and they told me they didn't like some of the rules I made. In general, I can deal with that and I can talk about why it's in place. But, for what I was going through, now was not the time to gang up on me about something they agreed to when they moved in.

And, they wanted to do a community graden in the front yard when I can't get anyone to pick up a towel and wipe off the counters. And, I want the front yard just to have a yard to enjoy. Those gardens hardly even grow anything.

But, they're lucky, because if I had been any less stressed I would have told them about themselves to absolute filth, on the spot.

But, what really threw me for a loop. What was really "game over" was when I was contesting to keep the front yard as is and the others wouldn't let it go and Has said "If it's communal, let's vote on it." I. WAS. LIVID. I said "fuck this," and stormed out slamming the door. I went for a walk to yell, and came back, packed my backpack and wrote a note saying "If y'all like _ so much, y'all can suck his dick!" And, when _ asked why I wrote that I went off about how I've done so much for the house and no one was supportive of my feelings and efforts. Previous people have been so shitty in this house and I don't know who's going to be shitty next, and everything I've set up is for a reason. The house manager would rather do anything but take on other interpersonal duties, and no one wants to do anything else and I do all the cleaning otherwise. Oh, but y'all wanna do a fucking graden? And, take up the space that I like, rather than put it in other places that are just as good? And, take away space from future housemates?

I have one person that spills food on themselves and doesn't clean it up when they stand up. One person that cooks and leaves a mess and dishes and leaves for days. The house manager and their partner's issue. Oh, but y'all wanna do a graden? In a spot that isn't even growing anything. And the one that spills food won't even be working on the graden.

These bitches right here... And, they say they're cool, but after what's happened why should I trust them? I can forgive but I don't forget. Everyday I get more reasons to resent Minnesotans. I might forgive Has one day, but I won't forget this.