Moving over!

Shit hit the fan on YouTube with a round of algorithm(?) based hard-perma-bans, so I'm moving everything I can to a new google email and making this email YouTude Only. With the expectation of some apps.

The new blog is: https://emoyoujo.blogspot.com/

i hate these people. i really do.

As of now, looking forward to leaving Minnesota.

decompressing about yesterday

I'm having some retrospective feelings about the person who accosted me yesterday. it would really be best if that person just hadn't done that. That's really extreme, even for an extreme personality like myself. I don't see how it makes sense for the store to have the security footage but then for me to go back 2 address someone to take their statement as a confession. They don't need a confession common or do they need to know your name or who you are. They just need your face so they can ban you. And after four years of sitting on that Grudge, this person never came across that idea. and even though I didn't like the person anymore, I went out of my way to tell them that they got banned instead of them possibly trying to come back to repeat the offense and then getting approached for returning. That's how they do it where I used to work. And if a person comes back, they could call the police. I was trying to save this person to seem, but I'm probably never going to do that again. and thinking about it, I probably should have done in the first place seeing as how I already decided that I didn't want anything to do with this person that after I felt like they ghosted me. Go to show I should give my loyalty to people who actually deserve it. that was some serious fucking mental illness to approach someone in that setting over 4 year old Grudge that doesn't make any goddamn sense, when basic logic is applied.

I'm not saying I'm never going back to the soup kitchen, but I'm obviously not going back anytime soon. I'm not planning on being in this state another 4 years, so never going back is within the realm of possibilities, but not set in stone. But the way they handled that was bullshit. That is a setting where it could have easily been someone having a mental health issue that I genuinely didn't know and I could have actually been in danger. I feel like if I had been in a place of business they would have told the person to leave. It sucks that I have to pay to be able to sit peacefully in public, compared to a space that set up for people to be there for free.

I've experienced this before. Always depends on the person who handles it. Sometimes she gets done and sometimes it doesn't, but usually in a place where people are paying for something, issues get handled a lot more assertively and escalated to aggressively if they need to. in places like soup kitchens in libraries, they just let things be. Don't even have people in there, like in this situation, but don't even know how to handle conflict. I don't see why anybody would be okay with having staff and volunteers at don't know how to handle conflict in the setting that involves dealing with the public. Especially, specific groups of people.

/Decompression