Not moving// trans house mates?

My options: staying in this house - upside down Queen of Swords. Moving, but staying in Minneapolis or st. Paul - upside down Fortune. Moving out of state - upside down Eight of Cups. What will help me make my decision - upside down 9 cups.

It looks like my best option is to stay where I am for the time being, despite how I feel about it. It may not be as bad as I think it will be. I basically won't have any luck finding a new place to stay in this area, and all the other places that I look at outside of the state are "dried up". but I will Reserve that in context of the places that I'm looking at, and not apply that to any other places that I might not be looking at, but may come across in the future to consider. What will help me decide is either dissatisfaction or misery. and I will admit I've been very dissatisfied with my options and people's reactions to expressing the type of situation I want to live in.

But, a passing issue is finding decent people that also happen to be trans, that also happen to be women. I'm considering having another cis house mate for a while longer, because things aren't working out with that side of the family like I feel like they should. Another thing I'm having a huge problem with is white privilege. Which can lead to other problems, like a lack a spatcial awareness or easily forgetting what someone brown just told someone and why they said it. Or, maybe just feeling like someone is exmept from what was said, based on privilege.

I know I don't want to pick another person that was born and raised in the state, or another white person. But, family is a challenge. I really don't want to drop off on giving well-deserved people an opportunity but I've had enough of what this area has to offer with the issues I've already endured.

It's more to think on, and I have a lot of time to think about it. It is very disappointing that this is something I have to think about in such a way.

Travel plans have changed slightly // A lot of changes

I made that video some WEEKS ago. Since then, I've cut out traveling back to AZ and  MN, and I'm only going to the southeast, but I'm only going to TN, AL, and GA.

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I may skipping a lot in between this, but I've shut down the punk house and communal house model for my current dwelling. No one wanted to do it, and one of the housemates is so insensitive to the point of not being worth this being a punk house. I can't call this a radical safe space, with people thinking it's ok to say "faggot" or any such terms in the house. And, the other housemate doesn't even talk to us, anymore. They started cutting themselves off, and now they have a tv, so we don't even see them anymore. But, now I don't blame them. We're terrible housemates for each other. It would be best if I let them go and looked after myself, now. I would rather it not be like this, but there's no other way, now.

My original plan was to come back in April, but that's much less likely to happen. It's still really cold in April, and I would much rather do what best for my bodily health. It's easier to get a job than it is to find a place I'll be able to afford. And, I can continue to look for a new place while inside here. I really don't have to talk to them that much, and it's better for my mental and emotional health that I don't. I agree with others that I've talked to that I didn't come back to the house, at all, but I'll just see what happens, and do what's best when the time comes.