With fall comes a lot of change! My life has a lot of change. Jobs, friends, and all. I'm looking for a new place to stay because my roommates are very boring and lackluster about life. My emotions are also scary to them, though I haven't done anything scary. I can really live without them, but I don't work to my ass off for a $700 place by myself in the inner city. I actually like having roommates. This is the first place I've been with people I dislike, and it's the same place I've ever paid for on my own. I wonder what that's suppose to tell me. I might resume camping come summer, because I don't hang out with wimps. Selfish wimps, to make it worse. I'm aiming for jobs that pay a little more than what I'm making now, and hopefully everything will work out, so I can have a higher budget for rent. I'm way to in love with my life for these people.
At the sametime, my health is taking a serious turn. There's a high chance my neck is going to need some kind of surgery, due to a lump that has been on my thyroid for months. It's soft, not pained, and moveable, so hopefully it's just weird fat. If it's fat, it can stay - that's not knife or drain worthy.
We'll see how things go. I'm 28, now. I'm too old for this shit.
Friday, September 23, 2016
Thursday, September 22, 2016
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Saturday, August 13, 2016
For a few days...
A lot of moving around has been going on. I've gone from staying in shelters to camping with camp mates. I also have a job cashier at a food store, and still yet looking for other jobs. Some many people in such a short amount of time. It feels like a month has pasted in only 2 weeks.
I had a mate fora few days. Things didn't work out due to personality differences, and we didn't know each other for over a week beforehand. t only lasted for a few days, but that's one of my current camping mates.
I'm not tron up about a break up. I'm getting creeping feeling of "I'm never going to get what I want out of a romantic relationship" after this, though. I'm fighting the feeling off very well. There was some putting down from this partner about my sexual conduct, but considering the egoistical angle it was coming from I'm not so hurt by the context. I'm a little hurt by what was said only because it was said, and it's along the lines of something I use to think about myself, thought the way it was said wasn't totally accurate. However, I've come to terms with my sexuality, and I know there's nothing wrong with me. The person that said those things is the one with the problem.
I will admit the attention and affectionate parts were nice.
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