Maxo - Reach You

ASGORE - Instrumental Mix Cover (Undertale)

LESS political MORE party!

The system only gets me down and the people around are so angry and boring. Talking about this subject hasn't gotten me much of anywhere I wanted to be or with people I would want to be around. I'm not giving up my morals, labels, or opinions. I'm not as readily available to discuss them, and I'm not sure as shit not getting any arguments. Their are more happy, entimening, and practical things to talk about. Anime, video games, cooking, making clothes, all kinds of stuff. All I can do is hope this corrupted system won't last forever and move on.

Frenssu - Thru The Air

FALSE RAPE ACCUSATIONS??

Imaginary enemies

Something I've been doing since at least my time in New Mexico has been making imaginary emegies. Random people or maybe not so random people doing hurtful things to me. I can guess how and why it started but now it's time for it to come to an end. I need to keep those thoughts ion check and to a minium. On the outside I don't walk around with a chip on my shoulder thinking everyone is out to get me and hurt me, so it doesn't make sense that I have these images in my head.

The Universe said...

I just ran my tarot, which is the only way to get me to calm down about all this. I can't say the Universe was just being nice to me. I know it is only honest. The Universe has told me that my heart is true and that I'm not wrong. I just have very unfortunate luck. I'm good at moving on and the obsticales in my way may very well be what I feel like my options are, in my ever changing position. It could also be related to how I feel about myself, and it doesn't look like my past trauma came up. That means it's not affecting me as much as I think it is, but I recount whenever things go wrong.

I have the building record that I have felt exists. Each expreince has been it's own, not tailed by anything. The love game is all about luck, and my luck is just bad. I can be less hard on myself now. Now, I can just cry about how unlucky I am, I guess. That's much better than believe I have the bad vibes of "mistakes" I've made in the past following me effecting my present and future. I still don't know what to do. If it's determined bad luck maybe I should stop trying to love out of knowing it won't work out. I can't change my luck. I'm still sad, but in a much less in a blaming others for what they've done or being self-hating for what I've done. Much less rueful and hateful reasons, for sure. I haven't made any mistakes. That's much more refreshing to know.

I guess that's it. I'll just stop trying.
That's it.
I'm dead.
No more.

(typed 4/4)